Thursday, September 10, 2009

on surrender

It’s a hot Thursday afternoon. I am reading a book entitled “Quest for Love” True Stories of Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot. Got no plans to go online until I bumped into these very words…..

Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give myself, my life, my all, utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever.—Elisabeth Alden Scott-Stam


It strucked me. I was stopped. I wondered—“when will I ever be able to surrender my life to Him like this??” Its easier said that done. It’s a commitment- a life long commitment. I felt selfish. Guilty. For a little more than 21 years what have I been doing? What have I done for my Maker? I made a lot of vows to Him—broken vows. Ive made so much decisions that in the end only I was hurt. And during those painful times, where do I go? To Him whom I disobeyed. I didn’t hear a word of anger. I felt comfort that I wouldn’t find somewhere else. In His silence I found unconditional love. In His love I found peace. And in His peace I found healing, happiness and a new beginning. Always a new beginning. He doesn’t count how many times I stumbled. How many times I disobeyed him. Or how many times ive asked for another chance.

Elisabeth Alden Scott known as “Betty” is a missionary in China. She was beheaded for fulfilling the Great Commission. Since the book is about relationships—she also surrendered this part of her life to God—completely. What happened? She was married to the man she loved—John Stam, in God’s time. Their watchword is “God first”. They are both willing to go wherever God will lead them. No hesitations, no subjections. Just obedience. So God rewarded them. They were married, both missionaries in China and not long, they had a daughter, Helen Priscilla. But months after, they were captured by Chinese communists of their time, marched half-naked through the village streets, and was beheaded. Priscilla? She was found by a Pastor. Their life inspired me. It moved me.

I want to be able to surrender every bit of me to God. Right now, I cant say I already did. There are just some parts of my life I was holding so dear to me. My prayer is that I will be able to fully give them up. Everything. Desires. Hopes. Plans. Past. Present. Future. Relationships. Lifestyle. Thoughts. And just about everything. And I want to be able to say & FULFIL:

“Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Thy will for my life. I give myself, my life, my all, utterly to Thee to be Thine forever. Fill me and seal me with Thy Holy Spirit. Use me as Thou wilt, send me where Thou wilt, work out Thy whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever.”—Elisabeth Alden Scott-Stam

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